Every couple of months I am reminded that London Fashion Week is just around the corner and I'm still not a full-time blogger or a magazine editor (lol). I always told myself that I would go even if its just to see one show or even stand around and take pictures, but I never end up going. I'll then open up an Instagram story and find out its upon us, with a heavy sigh, I swipe down the screen and the second between me swiping down the screen and returning to my home page,I shake my head inside, I don't know what I feel towards myself, disappointment or frustration.

These feelings have been resurfacing; they usually rear their ugly heads, when they smell procrastination at its most potent, they then decide to take a seat when they see forgetfulness has been thrown into the mix. Now if I'm consistent with these two because we all know consistency is key, I actually manage to not do anything.

I am disappointed with myself because I always fall through on my plans, and then  I feel frustration for always being disappointed, its a vicious cycle one that promises high blood pressure and unhappiness.

You see the gag is, I know exactly what can stop this vicious cycle; doing. So simple, yet so bloody hard. I think doing, starts with believing that you can actually do it, believing in oneself.

My belief in myself is something that I seriously think I need to work on. Fear induced questions often circle around in my head such as where do I start? What if its a waste of time? I let these questions haunt me for hours until I'm so tired of thinking that I fall asleep.

Don't be like me.

I am a poor example of self appreciation. So look away from me and look within yourself, I used to watch these Youtube channel called Spirit Science, It fused the uncertainty of spirituality and stability of science in a way that suggested that both are one and the same. It tells you look at yourself and see power, wether that power is from God or not, It lives inside you. It can radiate through your body. When you realise what your body is capable of, all the things that it does to keep you alive and moving, it becomes hard not to be in awe of yourself.

You will always be you. when you believe that this person you've grown to know over the years is capable of getting that job or starting that brand, u can't think of anything else, especially doubt.